A Wonderful Story I've Read

read a book today about a guy whose characteristics and looks like a girl. it was such a wonderful story. he changed after he met a girl, which was his best friend at first and they ended up together, living happily ever after. and then i thought, ahh... it would be soooo nice to have such experience, it would be nice to have someone like him. now that i thought about this, i realize that i never really dated anyone seriously before or shall i say it's like i don't have any interested in my own romance and it was quite a surprise that the lecturers in my college actually says that i'm a romantic girl. *sigh* honestly, i never really find anyone interesting or special to be my boyfriend. it's always bugging me when my girl friends ask,"why haven't you got a boyfriend? it's unbelievable that you don't have one! you must be hiding something from us!". i mean, come on, not every girl have to necessarily hunt for guys. its cause of this idea that i kept waiting for the right guy to appear. well, i know it may take years.. i'm aware of that, but what can i do? i don't want it to be a one sided love.

The Beginning of BitterSweetCappucino...

people said i don't have confidence in myself. well, i admit i am. there's actually a reason to it, but i juz dun feel like telling anyone about it. is there a reason for me to express or confess my feelings and thoughts? i don't want anyone to sympathize me. it's my second semester in college now, and it is so different from what i had and how i was treated by people from my high school. i never really had a good and memorable time from high school. i don't even want to remember or recall 'em. its just so pointless and dissapointing. anyway i'm writing this just to express and let out what has been kept in my mind.