Hectic semester coming to an end soon!

Finally the semester is coming to an end next week! I've been rushing tons of assignments like no tomorrow. Making an information kiosk, and also the hellish assignments for my Text and Image class. I was searching for information for my final project, and I came across a Twilight quiz! to see which vampire character are you in Twilight!

I am Jasper! ^^ Honestly, I love Jasper in the movie and even before the movie (the novels). He's so handsome >.<

Which Twilight vampire are you? Your Result: Jasper   You're extremely quiet, not letting others know exactly what you feel. You're very charismatic, if you're happy, it rubs off on other people greatly. You can be quite sly, and careful.
Edward
Carlisle
Rosalie
Alice
Esme
Emmett
Which Twilight vampire are you? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

Sometimes, I think I'm too quiet that people often misunderstood me when I'm not in a very good mood. I wonder how to prevent misunderstandings.

P/S - I love you

Met someone who is different from the people I've known all these years. He do not mind me telling him about my past experience and that I'm older than him. Though it's still hard for me to think about going out with him, it's fun when I chatted with him. He worries about me when I had a mood swing and was quiet the whole time. He did not pry too much, instead he told me that he's willing to hear me out whenever I wanna tell him. And everyday or everynight, he will never miss out his goodnight kiss and at the end of the chat would be "P/S-I love you." He tells me about whatever happens to him everyday, like getting his driving license banned for an invalid and unreasonable reason, his friend's birthday party, his studies. He always tries his best to spend more time with me, eventhough it's impossible to do it face-to-face.

I Need Concentration!!!

I'm on a two weeks break from college now, and it ends this sunday. Ring Ring~ new semester approaching. Right before this holiday, I had a really bad week. Betrayed in various ways, work, college, friends. So to say, I was extremely not in the mood for 'fun' holiday. Now that I live in Rawang, not KL. It feels like I'm being locked up in a new planet in a small locked cage. I don't have a freaking driving license to get out of town whenever I feel bored or when I wanna go for a movie. My mum do not allow me to go hanging out with my friends, though I only had a few... and I mean very very few... I'm not allowed to go out, I mean, shopping in the area that much. My mum's reasons are that she used to be a popular student, the 'Madonna' of Rawang which is from an extremely rich family that no one in Rawang do not know who is she and her family. Well, tough luck, he married my dad who isn't as rich as her dad. She can't buy nice fancy clothes that her friends of her age who is now surrounded by luxury, nor maintain her beauty. In a way, she's to be pitied. So I swore to God and my late granpa, that I, though alone, as a female child, will make a lot of money, even if i don't reach that goal, I'll make enough for my parents to enjoy their life till the end.

But the worst thing is, she being in such circumstance and I trying my very best to concentrate and to refresh my mind to work on my project for my final project/thesis and for my job application. She distracts me like no tommorrow ! Like today, i finally got rid of my depressed mood and was just about to start working on my project, she comes in yelling about this and that which for God's sake, isn't important! and then she screwed my mood for a single piece of shit which isn't worth it. God! FYI I'm working on a comic project, and it's my first time doing this, so I freaking need a hell lot of peace concentration! and why can't she understand that?! even my dad understand this. It's a hell lot of work to do the entire project myself plus I'm working part-time for my former lecturer who is I don't know who's he's working for, an organization or something, am concentrating on working on my part-time job too... anyone who is or who was a workaholic would know what I'm trying to archieve....

You know,... I'm sad... I'm really sad... lonely... and yes... I don't have the confidence to make it as a comic artist or an author. Though people who doesn't know me read my stories and said that it was impressive and I could very well be one, but the thing is I do not have the slightest clue as to how to be a genuine author, I mean a full-time author. What am I to do....? really...

Have He Lost His Sanity?

I tend to not mind other people's business much, but today, my aunt came and I overheard something that my aunt said. Apparently, one of my cousin brother (my mum's side) ran over a kitten with a bicycle. Shocked? Yes! Absolutely!

The very first thing my mum said when she heard about this is, "What is wrong with him?! How can someone be so brutal and cruel!". What I think is he needs to be sent to a mental hospital ASAP. By the way, he was only 9 years old now and the youngest in the family.

It was terrible. My cousin sister who went cycling with him this afternoon, witness the incident. She said that the little kitten had its eyes popped out, it's little legs were broken, there's a lot of blood gushing out from every part of it's body and the kitten wasn't dead on the spot. However, the brutal criminal laughed his ass off looking at the dying kitten.

I can't believe such people exist in my family. It was definitely an awful disgrace! Thank God, he wasn't my blood brother.. It would be hell if he is. Even only by hearing the incident, I was smack with sadness. so is my mum.

May God bless the poor kitten's soul.

Shortlisted for real--!?

i submitted a video for a contest last semester, the work was a piece of crap since i don't have any model or any other equipments, even the camera is not mine... but, i suddenly got shortlisted! i was extremely shocked... though i know i won't get any prize or win anything from such crappy work. my lecturer said that whoever got shortlisted must/preferable go for the event. it was at Sime Darby Convention Centre, 6pm to 12am, 6th August 2009. i didn't have a dress for such events.. and it was a very short notice, only 2 days time to prepare for that night. the hectic 2 days...*sigh*...

on that day, i was both excited and bored at the venue. why? there's no food, no place to sit, and in actual it starts at 8pm! god! ms. katie really trick me good! zZZzzZZzzz... anyway, since there's no food, i went somewhere outside the centre for dinner. when i got back it was around 9pm, and the show was just about to start... this was the 2nd year of NCA a.k.a. Nextgen Contentpreneur Award. so you definitely can't expect much from it. the crowd was small as if there's only 2 secondary school classes students, one of the light malfunction, the backlight was terrifyingly bright as if it's beaming at everyone sitting at the back.

anyway, i did not win any shortlisted prize, let alone an award. well, that's to be expected. since this is my first time to such events, i really gain alot experience from it. socially, mentally and psychologically. yes, it was an amazing day.

Sweet Shared Mocha

i read a story few years back, about a girl who is kind and cheerful saying that food, no matter what is it, always tastes better when you had it with someone you like/admired/close to you. and for this very phrase, i always thought that how can it be true? the food and drinks are the same. same ingredients, same recipe.

but today, i had a new point of view to this... i was doing my assignments with a friend who is so kind to actually fetch me from college to Starbucks Coffee. as i am now, i didn't want to waste my money buying extra expensive drinks. you know, starbucks coffee... and coffee at home... the price is like heaven an hell. so my friend bought her favorite, Mocha. she shared her mocha with me. i love mocha and she knew it even without me telling her! how on earth did she know about this?! anyway, it tastes alot better having lunch or tea with friends. really... i can even finish my huge burger faster than i usually was.

Cheers to Starbucks and A&W. love the marina burger!

Japanese classes? Nah, can't.

As mentioned in my previous post, I'm currently learning the Japanese language by myself. Last night, I found japanese games, and i downloaded 2 games. for the game's sake, i actually learnt that my computer can type and read japanese! hahaha! finally! i can type japanese (though i'm not that good in japanese as to actually read kanji yet. ^^) but it's fun to know that i can learn japanese is so many various ways now. i've got the dictionaries, grammars, worksheets, games and even the software now! i wonder how long to go before i can contribute as a translator... be it, manga, games, animes, movies, etc....

i intended to take even more intense lesson by applying for japanese classes, but due to financial problem, i couldn't go for one. not that my mom discourages me learning languages...

many of my friends would never have thought that i was in a deep financial problem, everyone thought i'm a rich girl...=.=... i wonder why would they think that way... first thing first, i don't even have a nice hairdo like most girls in my college does. i don't have any game platforms (Uh...God, i wish i can have a PSP or NDS... send me one this christmas, dearie santa!!), which was considered cheap to my friends. and what's more? some of my friend who knew that i haven't even got my driving license laughs at me all the time.